i am so fucked... z and I are at odds ... I simply cannot muster the emtional energy to play the standard role of 'aw gee I'm soo sorry' and 'how can I make this all better'... i'm more in a mood for 'great... fuck... whatever...' (then i stomp away - woohoo . how grown up am I?) f u c k when I don't act exactly like expected as a disciplined parent... I'm basically useless. man I'd love to be able to get into this but I'm a tad steemed to go for it now.
ps. 8 days... and guess what ... I really want a fucking smoke. (big surprise there huh)