OK fuck it.. I gotta set a date and stop smoking... This is driving me nuts. I sooo much want to be a non-smoker (or a least a smoker that is currently NOT smoking) but I sooooooooooooo (insert three pages of 'oooo' here) much use it for the crutch it is... Man I am conflicted!

ps. Lianna... I'm toying with the idea of posting that story (yes that story)... I'm a little afraid to... not sure what to do.