I wanna be able to comment on your post... but lj won't let me... Peace brother... Don't let the stess bite you. Things are hard enough without you caving in. Suck it up and stay together. This way you get to make it through. That way we get to be friends for a long long time... and that way I'll get to meet you eventually.
Take care and be well. You have good and true friends holding threads of hope for you all over.