K... so last night I was trying to figure out what I was feeling... 'cuz I was feeling something!! then it hit me. I've been wrapped and slapped with work stress for a solid week. Day in, day out of near panic as I jonsed over how things were going. Now I happened to get an evil cold in the middle of that so things got confused... but yesterday was a turning point... presentations, reviews, etc.... that all went so well... it kinda let the rope go. "Drop the bucket back in the well and relax." So as Advil Cold & Sinus caps were wearing off I became aware that the lightness in my heart was really there and not the drugs wearing off. :) This is good.
Now today... today is day one of the summer zone. I wake up to a sleepy house and go about my business with no kids breakfasts to make... no lunches (other than my own) to get ready... heck, I didn't even make coffee, opting instead to hit the 'bucks drive through on the way to work. :D ~! it was nice. Geo woke up and came down to say "have a good day at work dad" and that was pure candy. :D
I'm still super stuffed up and it seems to be trying to get to my throat and chest... worst part of a cold, if you ask me, is when you can't swallow 'cuz your throat is so sore... and I'm not there yet... (crosses fingers!!!)
wearing
~ black ftls
~ dk green dress pants... I sofa king need to buy new dress pants that fit better... gah!
~ strange kind of green short sleeve dress shirt...
planning
~ all-afternoon meeting... (gah!... remembering my comments re: the dead zone...)
~ getting started on phase II of my project...
~ soccer game (geo) after dinner... at, like, 6:15...
~ some soprano's tonight...
~ play some more with earth.google.com WOWOWOWOWOW! I didn't realize it did contours too... ps. it's download-able again...
~ snap pictures of my kitchen... draw a floor plan... and make a big ol'picture post about the design issues.
wishing
~ to send some lj love out to
kaleidoscopeeye... just because... ~ a million wishes for precious
catherine and her new babies... 2.12 lbs... 3.5 lbs... oh my goodness that's tiny. (this is the third time a friend here in lj has had twins... tiny little twins... it's so scary... so adorable... my heart just about explodes at the thought of it. And I've had lunch with Catherine and her little monkey Connor... so it's just that much more real... ~ for some good work mojo to wrap up my friend
lil_sass... and no sticking your tongue out...!!! :D~ and some almost random advice for a Jess... when you go on a cruise... you will drive yourself crazy trying to "do everything" or worse... "get your moneys worth". The only way to really enjoy a cruise, if you're new to the game... is to give yourself over to the cruise director... let go of your expectations and let the cruise entertain you. You can't always "live" like that... but you can elect to let parts of this life be like that... There's a degree of freedom in that. A chance to let go of expectations and roll with stuff. If nothing else, it gives you perspective and a chance to judge yourself and your life less harshly. And I will continue to quietly hope that you find the happiness and rewards you richly deserve. (hugs)
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Fresh cherries... cold and drippy with condensation... are freaking delicious. :D
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Calling all Designers :D
So we've bantered around the idea of moving for several years... In fact, "moving" has always been the way conversations about home renovations end. However, we made a decision to stay put for at the very least another 5 and probably 10 years. So this has enabled the home reno conversations. :D Our first project is a kitchen reno. Towards that end, we met with a cabinet maker who fancies himself a bit of a designer... Sadly, his good work and good ideas... seem dated... and very much like the work we've seen him do for other clients. So maybe he does this one thing well... but it's not striking me as the "design" we're looking for.
Suz and I are going to end up hiring a designer.
We've never done that before. I'm not sure how to judge but suzanne is an exceptionally good judge of people so between us we will surely make a good choice.
However... we're not in a big rush, so I want to make a step or two here in Lj.
I'll put together a picture post... friends only, with the kitchen and some floor plan stuff... and I'm jonsing for advice. :)
(bogart) "who knows... this could be the start of a beautiful relationship".
~ what do you think?
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A radio show was talking about eating disorders... the disembodied voice called up a girl that runs a pro-anna web site.
While I don't think there is anything "pro" about "anna" ... I think he was resoundingly uniformed and stupid in the way he criticised her.
It's not about being thin... it's not about helping other people be thin... it's all about a seriously messed up "control" issue.
Snapping your wrist elastic when you're hungry?
Look... It's easy to call the "annas" cop-out queens when they blame the world around them... and maybe the targets of their mistrust - the mass media and the unrealistic stereotypes - are misguided but people in general have to realize that eating disorders are issues that a person can resolve, if there is genuine support for them. And that does not include blaming them for their own problems and telling them to eat. That's just dumb ass.
And for the record... I think a young woman that sets up a web site for pro-anna talk ... is more likely than not, SCREAMING for help, as opposed to trying to get everyone to like anorexia.
It's a militancy born from the ashes of a social reaction that has totally failed to help these young women. It could be you... It could be your daughter... and she's not stupid.
k... work work work... loooooooooong meeting coming up. :)