November 22nd, 2004


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Well here I am... living la vida loca in the planetary Euthansia HQ.

One of the kids got the hiccups real bad...
... so we put him down.

Sad... but you know, those hiccups are such a burden.
What with all that "drinking water upside down from cup with a spoon in it" stuff...
... well it's just a damned nusance.


on a lighter note... I played with straws. oh, and tape.
I made a three dimensional rectangle... the size of one of the computer cases I've been looking at on-line.
It's pink, blue and lime green.  er... My 3D straw thing... not the computer case.


What is the deal with those 4 and 5 hundred dollar video cards. ATI and nvidia are pumping out 128 meg cards that cost 127$ and then others ... also with 128 megs that go for like $475.  What's the big deal? I mean ... is a [ :: Saphire 9800 128MB DDR :: ] going to be loads better than my Gforce2 MX?

ok... bed time. Long work week this week... Weighty things to think about...


Monday, November 22.

another brrrrrrr... morning.
evil bone cold... I really don't like this. Still wearing the long trench coat... not the big down filled winter coat. But in a month or so the temperatures will be so low that the weather today will feel positively balmy. So... I gotta suffer. *sigh* I have this great "blanket" in my back seat... I wrap myself in it when I'm driving in the cold... I mean, it's a honda so the heater kicks in and things get toasty... but when you're still waiting for the heater to heat up... well, that's blanket time baby. :)

~ blue ftls
~ black cotton kinda cargos
~ gray t and a big blue turtleneck. :)
~ um... well, the app dev stuff needs finishing...
~ more doc work and I need to fix my resume up a bit...
~ tonight? no plans man..
~ to thank you for the good geek info I've been getting lately... andysoft, fallingforward, compwizard... and more... you guys rock.
~ that I don't need an eye operation after the cats take over...
~ that grrrrrrrrrrrowl was here... making me cinnamon buns!! :)
~ for the hard work'en mommy zone in the life and times of ectv eases up a bit... hmmm?
~ and all my best out to cynica today... things are going to be ... just perfect. You wait and see. ;)

// I read in a friends journal the comments of someone that was quite certain President Bush was doing good work... I had to wade in a bit... and things eventually lead to him saying categorically that if only I'd talk to the right people, I'd see just how "necessary" the war in Iraq is. I can hardly believe ... but sadly I must... that people actually believe that. Necessary? My goodness... that's just totally fucked.
Lets talk about necessary....
What's today? November 22. It's a Monday. By Friday it will be November 26.
At 1300 minimum per day... times five... that equals 6500...
That's six thousand and five hundred.
That's how many children will DIE of AIDs related illness in Africa THIS WEEK.
That's like 54 kids every hour of every day of every week...
But I know ... I know... you can't have those damned religious types all pissed off at the Americans for invading their country in Fallloooooooooooooooogia. Oh no... can't have that.
The Iraqi conflict is not necessary... nor is it an actual war... because... well, war kinda suggests that there are two warring parties. In Iraq you only have the foreign invaders and the domestic population fighting them off. Call that a war if you want...
The African AIDs terror is absolutely devastating ... terrifying... and in need of massive multinational support. But it only comes on the backs of a hard fighting "coalition of the willing" and by that I mean actual caring people working tirelessly to bring any kind of health care at all to the devastated populations across the African continent... and I didn't mean a bunch of wanks cowed into submission by uber power monger Bush and his pathetic campaign in Iraq.

Yeah... so I kinda gotta get to work... (damn). :D

Have a great Monday...
Make it a great week by starting it off right.
Which, btw, apparently doesn't include talking to me about pet love.
But I'll stow that for another day. :)

peace frog
blue sunday.

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K... so it's 1:16 and after several hours of effort... I have finally found the math.

All I've been doing all morning is trying to figure out the mathematical formula that will "work out" the answer I'm looking for on a complicated spreadsheet... The goal being that, once found, this formula should be copy'n'paste'able to a row of cells and properly continue to generate desired results. Way math... way geeky... and... now that I've found it... very rewarding.

the hand

l8er sk8er. :)

::::::::::::::[ end of day me ]:::::::::::::

yeah... well today came and went.

~ I made serious head way on my project... finished version 3.0 of the ITIL Assessment Tool... although big ass ITIL Geeks will say "Tools are bad"... however... they can eat my shorts. :)

~ Random thought of the moment: I am soooo way ahead on christmas this year is dorky. :D

~ Please... send a few nice hopeful vibes into the air for kendokamel's grandfather... he's in need of finding.

~ My thumbs are a mess.... (if you don't know what that's about ... forgeddaboutit... if you do know... gah... wish me luck.)

~ I hope to finally get SpamAssassin configured tonight... (home domain server... it's getting stupid with a gazillion spam messages every day...)

There are some people in my journal world... who are just dancing as fast as they can to stay ahead of the beat that is chasing them.
I want so very much to be able to talk to you... and share words that make the dance a little more manageable.

Let the water rush over you ... let the water wash away the things that make you afraid.
You are so much more important than you imagine... let alone being more important than he thinks you are.
But whatever you do... don't dissolve under the pressure of that water.
Hold it together... because if there is want to be found again...
You don't want it to find a puddle of you.
Be the person you are...
Be the person you want him to want.
It's easy to tell yourself you "wont settle" when you pick your mates...
Make it even harder to settle when you shape yourself.
Be demanding...
Be the person ... be the woman ... you really are.
... she's everything she needs to be.

Take care... and I'll see you soon.


dum di dum...

So far... an interesting evening.
Lil' geo is nine and starting to get a little more range to his emotional self...
that's not really cryptic, just a hard to'splain thing about seeing your kid growing. :D

Between bouts of sneeze flurries... and a strange tingle in my throat... I'm planning on consuming vast quantities of fruit, juice, vitamins and echan ecunatia? euthanasia?  gah... you know what I mean... I sooooooo do not want to get sick. I hate "sore throat sick" sicks...

I spent a couple of hours outside farting around with this christmas light idea I blossomed in my mushroom cloud of a bone head brain I carry around with my neck.  I hate (and that's a deep kind of tortured dislike thing there... ) putting up christmas lights... because ... they alllllways suck. The stupid lights point in the wrong direction... and those little plastic "clips" on them... that snap off in the cold...

Any ways, I figured I could buy some 8 ft long 2x1's, stain them and then staple the freaking light strings to them.  Add an "eyelets" to each end and put hooks on the house trim and ... it's presto time.  Cool huh... simple huh... yeah.

K... well I've done about 65% of the deal... 'cept I put the lights on the wrong side of the wood. 
This must seem ridiculous but ... well, it has to do with the way theres three pieces of wood for one string of lights and how it all hooks together.
Bottom line... I'm all jazzed about how great it's going to work out... but first I have take it all apart and start over.

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oh... and may I just say, I do not,
in any way, expect you to all have
the same opinion,
or dreams as I do.
I like you just the way you are.