July 10th, 2003

red

panic

There are two kinds of panic...

you know that momentary feeling when you forget you're wearing... say... earplugs on a walkman or something and reaching for something in your pocket or to itch a tickle on your back... your fingers brush the wire hanging down. There is a 1 split second of something before you process... "it's the wire..." That's not panic...thats a surprise... But when the same thing happens except when you close your fingers over the wire... it's legs move and you realize it's not a wire but some freakish exoskeleton bug thing on your flesh? That's panic! You flick your fingers and jerk your body ... almost involutarily and maybe spring away a bit... Oh sure... there's times when this doesn't get ya... but there are others....

ok ok... that's one type... the surprise becoming panic panic.

Then theres the other... the one that creeps into your brain like a mugger following your up your steps... like when you glance over at the closed shower curtain while brushing your teeth... you know you looked because a part of you thought you saw movement... but your alone. You're looking and nothing is moving... there's nothing there... you're certain... but there is no way in hell you're not checking... because it's already alive in your mind... on your skin... hell your sphincter is prol'y clenching... until you check. That creeping panic is evil...

Alrighty... time to brush my teeth and go to bed... :D

Night night.

oh, Edward has some kind of tummy thing going on... they're in day camp all week and maybe he's just over extended... we'll see in the morning. However, all things being equal, tomorrow after work we take the kids to this tv studio (The NewRO) 'cause the kids names were drawn to appear on the 6:00 news Sports Segment on Camps Canada Sport Camps... :D Taping on several vcr's... :)

Alright... didn't read a thing in lj tonight... utterly bagged dead tired and going to bed... see ya tomorrow muchachos y muchachas...
newavi

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The Supremes from The Amazing Race... the "wives of professional athletes", were interviewed on the radio this morning as I drove to work... They were tossed off the show last week. To quote them, "We feel that all people are equal... regardless of race or income."... Yeah,... just a little more equal when yer the wives of professional athletes. sheesh... good riddance.

wearing
~ red ftls
~ dk blue dockers
~ odd colour, pale blue sorta (or is that pail) long sleeve Kcole shirt
planning
~ remember I mentioned having to move my office on Monday... didn't happen... eh... it happens today.
~ writing a crap load of stuff about the projects...
~ get the ball rolling on a few arguments in the office.
~ downtown for lunch... I think... better... 'cause I didn't bring lunch.
~ writing a bb4 update... :D
~ watch Amazing Race tonight...
wishing
~ that my little Edward feels better today... he's such a little tiny person... and a real stoic..."I'm fine... I wanna go to camp..."
~ that rising_ophelia has a good night tomorrow... and good luck for your Jameson...
~ a world filled with wishes for one of the very sweetest women I have ever met on lj ... serraph... just 'cause.
~ and a big Go You to sugarvaulter. Take No Prisoners sugar-v ... and don't take any crap either
~ my heart is a wee bit heavy today... and I know it's goofy and corny... but it's the empath in me taking over and wishing with all of my heart for the world that spins around dear ladyfire to slow down enough to let some kind of peace... some kind of precious strength to rise up within you sweet lisa. The song I am listening to... it is making me think of you.

Lisa
may the strength of your heart,
as you are carried towards tomorrow,
find the prospect of that day
and the days that line up ahead of it
an enterprise worth your effort
and reward you with a love
a love born within you
and that you may find a place
where it feels well invested.


... ok... time to pack.
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