Silence deafens us
End of day ritual unfolds
Began with lets talk
Well back at work (after a painful 2 hour commute - man people can really suck at driving) and I am already having a rough time... A client expected me at their office at 9:00 this morning... (HA!) that's not going to happen. Anyways, I'm a busy busy beaver... later LJ.
(remember when I was in this perpetual good, no, "awesome great" mood all the time? What happened? Where did that groove go? I want it back dam it... somehow I have go to get my groove back and find that happy zone.... mmm maybe I should start smoking again??? naw, that would suck. It's gotta be out there tho. No I gotta find where.)
I am completely uncomfortable with this feeling - and it's all totally work related (therefore, prol'y very boring) but I'm furiously pounding away at some solaris servers in a lab with this very specialized software that I will be using at this client site tomorrow... The feeling I'm not liking is that I only just barely understand this particular use of the software and I have to sell the client on my 'vast' knowledge... folks, they're pay'en me to be a bullshit king... and the people I'm shitt'en are good people. I'm conflicted.
Don't get me wrong... I'm gonna do it with bells on - no hesitation. It's called "sucking it up" and "do'en it for the boss". This is what they pay me big buckets of money for... but that does not change the fact that it is a bad feeling...